Sleeping beneath a supermarket and a desperate poly-drug addict 4 months ago.

PSA: Contains SH And suicidal thoughts etc.

I’ve had a long standing and very very nasty poly-drug addiction for around 12 years now and I’m only 29.

I was sleeping beneath a car park where I was robbed, had glass bottles thrown at my head and eating packets of Nurofen Plus desperately trying to numb the despair I was in.

I tried killing myself multiple times, I lost everything and have nothing left any more. No friends, I’m too scared to contact anyone it’s all so overwhelming.

I’ve managed to kick every drug apart from vicious Benzodiazepine addiction which I really need to go to rehab for.

I’m so lonely, I live in a shithole disgusting homeless uk hostel. I used to earn a very healthy wage and lived comfortably so this is challenging alone.

Anyway to the motivation part, I’m so proud of myself and what we as human being can achieve if we put our minds to it. Discipline has changed my life. I’ve been hitting the gym hard for three months and put on 17kg which i can’t even believe myself lol. All natural hard work. I’ve also landed a really exciting IT course and I do some private gardening for a nice lady whose advert I responded to.

Honestly I wanted to die every second of every day, I just want people to know from someone that has genuinely been to the bottom and lost everything that you can do it and you’re loved. Fitness, discipline and being active has been my key.